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I feel sorry for myself sometimes...What I've sensed does make sense...They are very true...Which mean I'm not thinking too much...How to correct the deviance...I'm so desperate...It's not my decision to make...Apparently it's fated...Fed up...I'm being jugded on thing which is uncontrollable...They just don't know what it's like to be in my situation...Pathetic..!I'm not angry...Just it's not fair...I feel disgruntled that's all...Erm~ maybe a little angry...After I read those threads...Both are not easy...I agree with them...Truly agreed...Still there are some advocates...Which make me feel better...At least a little...Ya that's more than enough...I guess I overlooked the "big picture"...Sigh~I'm still...Immature and erratic...There is a will there is a way...I have the will...But I don't see the way...Is there really a way..?
Hmm~What am I thinking "ho"...No idea...Not even a clue...Going for movie on Fri...Two choices...The Bodyguards and AssassinsOr Avatar...Seen the trailers...Both are attractive...But have to make a decision...Any will do for me...Lazy to make decision actually...LOL...So they decided...To watch Bodyguards and Assassins...Many great films recently...Muahaha...Want to watch all of them at cineplex...If possible...Sis permed her hair again...Erm not quite right this time...Look kinda "cacat"...Her hair too dry "le" I guess...Oops...Did I just said that...Sorry but that's the truth...LOL...She won't see this anyway...She seems to enjoy what she's doing now...Working as a sales...I always wonder what's the feeling to start working...That's why I'm always interested to her "story" at work...Few more years...Then it's my turn to look for a job "lu"...As a accountant or auditor or something else...Hesitating...Continue to ACCA or switch field...Depends on my FEELING at that moment "lo"...I'm so emotional...Hate it...So indecisive...Who actually gave me this trait "ho"...Dad or mum...I'll observe them seriously...Hee...Holiday "ma"...I have the time to do this "wu liao" observation...Oh ya...My mum had serious headache this few days...Hopefully she'll be fine...Is there any cure besides paracetamol and aspirin...
Ah~Feel relief...Finally holiday... muahahaTime to rest "enough enough"...Watched Storm Warriors II... thumbs upWith Tif and Theo...It's damn GOOD...Sure it'll be one of my collection...I prefer to watch movie at MBO...Sound system better...Layout nicer...Most importantly the air is fresher... no offenseLOL...I have to say...Sleeping is so enjoyable... XDOne of my favourite to do during holidays...I spent hours to "chase" manga now...I'm coming for you Claymore..!But I discover that Anime is always different from Manga version...Story and detail vary in some parts...However...I still prefer Anime...Manga for me is quite dull...No sound no motion...Hope the team continues with Claymore(Anime ver)..."don't disappoint me please~"...I'm expecting some OVA as well...But no good news so far... : (Things to buy during this holidays...Bankdraft(MUST) and pillow... money againThe rest not so urgent...I forget what are they actually...All I felt is just surprise...After that I got "curi curi" happy... laggingShhh~I'll just keep it to myself...I wonder...Hmm~Die I'm "addicted"...LOL...
Again...I face the same problem...Where is the motivation...I'm so gonna DIE..."sien lo"...I feel like resigning...Guess I don't suit this kind of course...Hate it...Haih~Don't know "ah"...I am just lazy...And that's it...It has became more dominant...Since...Em...Year ago I think if my memory serves me correctly...Die~Is there any cure for laziness...I think I need people to "rotan" me...So that I start "functioning"...Ah~What ever...Drowsiness is more dominant now..."Zzz"...
Few more minutes left before December...Mm~I'm going to say the same thing again..."I hate exam"...I want holiday so badly...To sleep 12 hours everyday...To watch all the drama that I've missed...To release the accumulated tension...2 more weeks to go...Be patient...And most important-ly...REVISE...I know what's going to happen...But...There is something unexpected...Oops...Haha...That feeling...Yes I remember it...It has returned unanticipatedly...Em...I don't hate it...Instead I like it very much...I'm crazy I think...But who cares...I enjoy it for the moment...Like I always say..."happy 'jiu hao'"...I wish it comes TRUE...But from my experience...Wish is always a wish only...Right..?
I've experienced it myself...However...I doubt the so call "progress" is genuine...Mm~ I trust my sense...Erm erm erm...How to say "ho"...Err~ I think it's"只能意会不能言传"...It's intangible...That's why...And different people...Different perceptions...I'm looking forward to it...A genuine one...But not that desperate to have it "la"...Not like SOMEONE... XDBy the way...My taste not so bad...Lol...At least there are some people who agree with me...I'm kinda "pek ceh" for the past few days...Couldn't make up my mind...The major concern is that I'm afraid of getting the wrong one...Haih~Somemore I feel guilty...After they said "yes" and took the cash out...It makes me like so immature...So inconsiderate...I told them...And they then convinced me...But still...Haih~ don't know "la"...
Die "lu"...So tired because of T5...Still have so many chapters...100% can't finish...See how I die tomorrow...Sigh~Anything la...Just try my best to finish EVERYTHING...I actually forgot T3 mock is today..."how could you forget about EXAM?!" mummy not happy "liao"...Lucky that Crystal and Sze Ee mentioned about it...Or else...I was so worried about it...Thought teacher would set VERY VERY difficult questions..."heng arh"...She din't...Hee~It's better than I could imagine...I was lazy to answer a 6 marks question...So I use "shortcut" method...Mm~Instead of rewritting it out...I put an "a)" then "b)" beside the "a)"...All the things are there already...Haha...I guess 6 marks gone "lu"...Now I regret...Sure drop one...And uh...There is something I DON'T understand...Thing just changed without reason(s)...I'm sure that something happened...I don't think people would tell...Unless I ask them personally...I want to know "le"...I want to know how and why..."why" more important actually...Haha...If not I'll think too much...And too far away...
So cold so helpless...
Another sleepless night..?I think so...Haih~I'm speechless...I'm very sleepy...But just can't fall asleep..."how come?"..."err I don't know..."...There is always something to upset me...Fate..?Destiny..?Am I over superstitious..?I realized...It changes my life...And I HATE it so much...I've tried so hard but...So helpless...It is a despair of me...I can't accept it...I really CAN'T!!!I dream nothing...But nightmare...I get nothing...But DESPAIR...
厚厚的乌云挡住了阳光...成天都阴沉沉的...睡意好重...但就是无法入睡...最近好多事...烦的嘞...一点也帮不上忙...唯有说说话发表意见仅此而已...难过与惆怅掺杂在一块儿...因为只能站在一旁看着...因为体会到他们的感觉...因为我一点用处都没有...咳... 很累啊...自己也不清楚为什么...真的好想放掉...已经快要不行了...我想...我就是那么的不堪一击...我很气...很不甘心...但是...我无从选择...就是因为这样..."我不甘心!!!"...在幻想里...人生好美满...在现实里...人生充满了约束...我在等待...傻傻的等待着...只希望...不要来得太迟...
